MANILA, Philippines – Jennifer, whose real identity is withheld, has been engaging in (using and pushing) illegal drugs, particularly “shabu” (methamphetamine hydrochloride) since she was 14 years old until she’s in her late 20s. This she admitted without hesitation during an interview and other media in a rare privilege recently in this capital city. She poured all her story from being feeling neglected to the need for somebody’s attention. It’s a powerful telltale of hers that she later on became a courier.
What was revealing further was that illegal drugs in Bohol involved law enforcers and politicians from being drug protector to peddling it even to the young ones. It is obvious she refused to name names, however.
Lack of attention
She said in vernacular that her mother left for abroad to work and only her father and brothers were left at home. Then loneliness started to creep in her even as parental attention and love she needed most following her mother’s leaving. Solitude and lack of attention from her parents forced her to engage in illegal drugs when she was at the tender age of 14.
She said she was apparently influenced by “Tapok-tapok sa barkada nga naa’y kaya sad ba” was the first things she knew in using drugs. “Pagsugod tilaw-tilaw pa,” she said, until the dosage was increasing over and over.
She explained that having a high dosage means one takes an exact amount of “shabu” enough for her/him. “Depende sa tawo” she said. For her, she takes “shabu” worth PhP500 per session enough for her to hallucinate “aron dili mabitin.” Sometimes she took it piecemeal.
What do you feel when taking drugs and taking it? Kon wa kay drugs, siyempre normal ang imong panghunahuna. Depende kon bag-o pa pod ka wala pa pod ka maanad. Kon magkadugay ka, ana ma-feel na gyud nimo nanginahanglan ka usahay labina dili nimo i-apil imong barkada makalibre ka. Gaan paminaw nimo.”
How do you feel after you take “shabu,” she said she’s tripping by doing house chores and “laag-laag.” While she continued to deal with her new found diversion, there was a time of pause in using drugs for about a year when she was 17 years old, she said. “Basin kulang ko og someone,” she said.
Husband, also a user
She met her husband (name withheld) and later on she learned that he also uses drugs, she said. But she did not expound how her hubby reacted upon knowing she also uses the prohibited drugs.
Time came when she was confronted by her family in a cordial way since she became the talk of the town. But she said her family protected her because they did not want her to be put to shame.
She said she was being asked now that she’s in drugs what do you do, do you still go on with it.
There was even an instance that her siblings almost saw her do the “procedure” in preparing the “shabu” prior to taking it in. Since then, she realized she must be careful because she does not want her three children to become like her – engaging in illegal drugs, she said.